Kak Fa ooo Kak Fa… Mana hilang? Lama tak nampak berkeliaran di www.bubblynotes.com? Ada ni haa…
Pergi bertapa sekejap bagi mendalami ilmu … Ha ha ha… Gurau-gurau… Jujurnya tak berapa nak gagah mencari ruang nak menaip. Asalkan malam jer, bila dah dapat luruskan pinggang terhanyut… Asalkan malam jer, bila dah dapat luruskan pinggang terhanyut… Asyik terhanyut jerlah kerjanya… Tapi kali ni, hari ni, Kak Fa gagahkan diri juga untuk menaip. Tak boleh jadi nih… Cukup-cukuplah asyik hanyut tu ha… Dah tiba masa balik dari percutian menaip dan sebagai permulaan, Kak Fa mulakan dengan cerita tentang seorang Kak Fa yang dah pun genap 36 tahun pada 24 November 2018. 24 November 2018 – 36 isn’t an old woman OK? Muahahaha… … Walaupun? Walaupun… Hakikatnya sejak kebelakangan ni, Kak Fa mula menjadi seorang yang sangat concern tentang keanjalan kulit dan fine wrinkles… Ihikss… Boleh katakan dah mula jadi seseorang yang obses dengan cermin. Kejap-kejap tengok cermin, kejap-kejap tengok cermin… Ahaksss…macamlah dalam setiap minit tu ada perubahan struktur muka! Freak kan? Of course-lah!
Biar apa orang kata, 36 isn’t old but it’s the oldest I’ve ever been. . I am grateful because I’ve been blessed with another day. Be it end of a friendship, illness or the age-ing of my body I am constantly reminded that life is too short. Life is too short to sweat the small stuff and needs to be spent smelling the roses and spending time with those I love . Kak Fa dah mula didik diri untuk tak terlibat dengan perkara remeh-temeh serta kebudak-budakan, Kak Fa pun, ha ha ha… dah jadi macam ignorance dah dengan benda-benda yang buatkan Kak Fa rasa tak selesa dan boleh menyemakkan mata serta fikiran Kak Fa. I couldn’t care less dah. Lantak pi lah kat situ. I do my best to live life to the fullest in dedication to those who had to leave the party way too early. It’s the least that I can do. .
As we get older, we learn that it really is the little things that count. A good coffee. A subtle perfume. Sunshine on a cloudy day. Fluffy clouds. A cozy blanket. A hot shower. Hugs. Perfect happiness is a beautiful sunset, the giggle of my son. It’s the little things that make happy moments, not the grand events. Joy comes in sips, not gulps. Macam pepatah kata, makin berisi makin tunduk, so do Kak Fa – especially in the confidence department. These days I walk taller, do what I want, wear what I want, express my opinion back myself and say NO. It feels AMAZING. Confidence is the bomb. It is sexy. And it is liberating.
By the age of 36, Kak Fa come into my own sense of style. Be it fashionable or comfortable, it’s all about what makes me feel good in my own skin - and stuff what anyone else thinks! Suka hati Kak Fa lah… It wasn’t until Kak Fa hit my 30’s that I developed a sense of style. These days, Kak Fa wear shawl that don’t need ironing, that flatter my shape and that feel good. I opt for boots, wedges and thongs over stilettos. I’m also a lot more playful and experiment, with a dash of glamour here, some funky dresses there, differing shawl styles and colours – I’m really enjoying mixing things up!
Now a days, there is no better relief than a quality nights sleep, especially when you wake up feeling rested and refreshed the next day ready to take on the world! Ha ha ha… Itu yang selalu sangat terhanyut tu. Walhal dalam kepala ni ha, dah set malam ni nak draft entri, malam ni nak publish entri. Kak Fa prioritise sleep by practicing sleep hygiene. Ban tech from my bedroom, unplug at least 2 hours before bed and treat myself to some nice bedding so I can sleep like a queen.
It’s a given. Syukur Alhamdulillah. I’ve notched up 36 years of life experience – nothing can replace that! I am doing myself a favour and use my life experience to give back by sharing my words of wisdom and typing it up. Time is valuable and needs to be reserved for real people who appreciate me for who I really am and vice versa. At the age of 36, no longer about being part of the cool group and you will have realized who your REAL friends are and how important they are to you. If this isn’t happening, Kak Fa really need to sit down and have a big think about who I am giving my time and energy to.
Kak Fa also decided to ditch some of the baggage. We all have baggage we’ve collected throughout our lifetime however we can choose whether to continue to carry it around and to let it weigh us down or not. Where does it get you anyway? Kan? By the time I am 36, I started to throw out that excess baggage I’ve been towing around for some time. So, bila dah buang, Kak Fa certainly feel so much lighter these days! .
36 is the new 26… …30 is the new 20, 40 is the new 30, 50 is the new 40… regardless of whether you believe it or not, it’s all about keeping young at heart and not letting life drag you down, so smile daily, laugh often, dance like no one’s watching and act like younger than you are. Aside from feeling good, your joy will be contagious.
There is nothing more restorative than some dedicated me-time while doing something good for your soul (or nothing at all!). Me-time is the perfect way to recharge my batteries, whether it’s sleeping, having a couch day or going for a window shopping on my own self. I also amaze myself at how much stronger, more resilient and level-headed I have become as I have grown older. Just that I need to be more careful not to let becoming more resilient turn me bitter.
Life experience and wisdom leads to the increased ability speak my mind and tell how it is, whether it’s calling bullshit when you see it, sticking up for myself or others, or being honest with how I feel. The people I know will either love this or hate it. Regardless, this is where my true friends will shine through, when new friendships will develop and when I will start to find my tribe. Gaining clarity in ANY area of life is clearly awesome. I wont’t ever be one of those people who knows what they want to do in life however I’m comforted by the thought that I am clearer on what I DON’T want to do in life as well as what my priorities are. Self-care, love, family, happiness, creativity – these ARE my priorities. Gossip, bitching, negativity – they are NOT my priorities.
Officially 36th! Ya Allah, thank You… Thank You for another year of life that You gave me. I’m so grateful for all the things that You’ve been giving me. Thank you for my family who never fails to show some love and care for me. Thank you to all my friends, who never forget me and always understand me. Thank you for all the people who remembered me on my birthday by sending messages and good wishes via groups, What’s App, sms, e-mail, direct messages and of course greeting me personally. Thank you husband for the birthday wish video. Rare ni… Tak pernah berlaku selama ni. Tiba-tiba skrin terus bersemut bila husband buat video yang dipesan dengan hashtag jangan viral… ha ha ha…
Ya Allah, thank You… Thank You for another all the experiences that You gave me this past year. Thank You for giving me all the success and achievements that will always be happy memories for me. Thank You for giving me all the failures that molded me to be stronger and drove me to come closer to You. Thank You for giving me all the happiness that give me time to celebrate. Thank You for giving me all the sadness that reminded me of my own weaknesses and made me realized that I really need You to be my guide and light in my life. Ya Allah… please… Forgive me, for all my shortcomings… Forgive me for all the chances that I failed to take and for all the opportunities that I miss this year.
Ya Allah, please give me more strength and patience to face all the challenges that lies ahead of me… Please help me in the days of the year ahead that I may make the best year for me yet… Ya Allah, Thank You… maybe all those thank You would never be enough, but still… Ya Allah… Thank You… Amin amin ya rabbal alamin.