Mula-mula...masa Kak Fa terima e-mel dari Cobyhaus Malaysia, I am so honoured to read that FARAH WAHEDA WAHID has been nominated as one of the 100 influencers that have been shortlisted for this award by Baby Products Association of Malaysia (BPAM). Bila sebut FARAH WAHEDA WAHID tu, bermaksud Kak Fa carry www.bubblynotes.com dan IG: @farahwaheda. Kenapa tak Facebook? Sebab Kak Fa sedar diri yang Kak Fa lebih aktif di Instagram berbanding Facebook. Entah? Tak tau kenapa entah... Lebih sukakan Instagram berbanding Facebook sekarang ni. Maybe it's just me. Tapi macam mana pun, Facebook tetap Kak Fa cuba maintain. Tak fikir sangat pun nak menang... Tapi lebih kepada rasa macam-macam (for sure happy feelings) yang susah Kak Fa nak describe bila diumumkan sebagai The Top 20 IBUENCER AWARDS 2018 by BPAM!
It means such a lot to have www.bubblynotes.com and @farahwaheda recognised in this way. It has been 3 days since that moment when I heard the three words... FARAH WAHEDA WAHID. I know... mad right? Yes, somehow, I've been awarded The Top 20 IBUENCER AWARDS 2018 by BPAM! Ha ha ha... Gedik... as if it was a moment about as close as I would ever get to an Oscar. Truth is... I am so thankful to be nominated and I was in complete denial that I could possibly win. Errr... well... I've been nominated and received awards before... But still... I was still in denial... Ha ha ha...
Nak tau tak? Apa yang Kak Fa rasa? This is what I've worked for more than 10 years and always wondering if the work I do is worth the effort. Blogging is hard. Being an influencer is hard. Ha ha ha... Seriuslah... Sebab Kak Fa masih takut nak panggil diri Kak Fa sendiri influencer... We constantly have to expose our lives (while monitoring what to expose and what not to expose), tell our stories and obtain metrics that ultimately show "how much people like me". We are the dreamers, creative storytellers, the voice that has the ability to change lives and bring hope to the world. We have influence to reach people in the best way. Uhuksss... Punching line tak hingat!
Nak tau apa yang Kak Fa rasa lagi? This is for the mom who rocks parenting, balances it all and yet is overwhelmed with all of the responsibilities of the world. Ini salah satu kepuasan Kak Fa weiii... Sebab Kak Fa masih tak lupa dan Kak Fa masih ingat dengan jelas wordings - "Anak baru seorang berangan nak jadi Parenting Blogger?" - words yang Kak Fa terima melalui e-mel dan Kak Fa pernah kongsikan di dalam salah satu entri blog Kak Fa. Doesn't matter right? Anak seorang ke? Anak dua orang ke? Anak tiga orang ke? Anak empat orang ke? Anak lima orang ke? Parenting within itself is the hardest job I've ever had. Muahaha... I'm a survivor some days, a warrior, a peacemaker, a problem solver, a giver and a compassionate healer. So to receive an award that not only highlights my job as blogger, but also as a hardcore multitasking Mom, it's a Medal of Honor.
Additional perasaan? This award is for me too! I hate to be an attention seeker, I hate to look like I'm bragging, I hate feeling superior to anyone else. All I want is to be humble, serving and always loving towards somebody else - ehhh betullah! Kak Fa kan murah dengan senyuman dan Kak Fa bergaul dengan sesiapa sahaja. Tapi kadang-kadang tu, I need to give myself some grace too. Sebab there are people who care about me, who want to see me succeed and dream and soar. I need to believe that they are people who want to be happy for me, that love me for me. And the people who don't - well they're going to judge me anyway. And it's not my problem. It's theirs. Nak pening-pening kepala buat apa? Kannn ?
Bangga sangat ke Kak Fa? Nak dapat award sangat ke? What is so great about getting an award? Alaaa... Top 20 jer pun...Bukan Top 10! Toksah kekwat sangat boleh? Ha ha ha... Sebenarnya, this is something that I can learn from it. Top 10 ke? Top 15 ke? Top 20 ke? Top 100 ke? Every single award is not an award to be taken lightly, every single nomination is not a nomination to be taken lightly. It's one I accept with the responsibility to work harder and to keep telling you my story to you - for you.
To BPAM - Thank you for giving me this award! Alhamdulillah, syukran Ya Allah.