I've earned each and every day of this life story, both the good and bad. Today is my birthday - yes, I can admit it. How old I am? I am officially 35 years old today - as at 24 November 2017 tepat pukul 11.35 pagi. . Cumanya... I can't tell which one looks more frightening: the actual number 35 or spelling it out. Thirty five. Thirty five. Thirty five. No matter the font selection or CAPS arrangement, the words seem pretty aggresive to me. Ha ha ha... …
Part of me definitely does believe that hype. I don't feel my age and often, I am assumed to be younger. Ecewahhh! This is the ultimate compliment for me. I've been working on controlling my reaction to this information because the high-pitched squeal and breathy laughter just screams you're older than people think.
As young as I may feel inside, the actual number itself is still daunting and odd. When my mother brought me into this world, she was approximately this age, an age that was considered too old to even have children.
So, let's talk about age, life and how freaking weird it is to get older and to be "old". Aging is a topic I've been mildly obsessed with since I was 15. I am not sure what set it off, but I remember noticing how the skin crinkled around my eyes. Pointing out to my mother that I had wrinkles and that it bothered me, she rolled her eyes and told me to stop starring in the mirror because I obviously had too much time on my hands. Ha ha ha...
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Dah-dahlah tu Kak Fa oiii... But time gets bolder, even children get older and I'm getting older too... That is it. It was not that 35 meant I am "old" not even that I am older, though the latter is true. It is each time I get older, my son are, too. We celebrate birthdays, sometimes even half-birthdays but every day they are even more full of life and independence. He is even more his own person with his own ideas and humors. As time gets bolder, my baby will no longer reach for my hand as we walk down the hallway at home. As my son get older, he will no longer need or want me to cuddle him at bedtime. My comfort in all this? As I'm getting older, he may need me less for kissing boo-boos and planning outings but he will need me more for homework help and the latest social crisis. I am getting older. My son is getting older. The passage of time is bittersweet, as we all know. When my personal calendar hit 35 today, all I really had to do was stop to think about the sweet to realize that the bitter is not so tough to swallow after all.
Chill-lah Kak Fa kan? 35 jer baru... Hu hu hu... Ikutkan I could go on forever about what I am grateful for and what I have learned. This year has been such an eye opener for me and as hard as it has been just as rewarding. I look forward to the next year, In Shaa Allah... Dengan izin Allah and hope that I continue to grow and progress in the best of me I can be. I never want to quit learning even though through learning and growth can hurt, I know it's a necessity.
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Syukran Ya Allah for the 35 years of life that Allah has granted me. It is by Allah grace, love and Allah's will that I am here. Not to forget! I also wanted to honor my mom on the day that everyone honors me. Mama...congratulations for being an awesome mom, making it this far and going through all the struggles that I know you go through to get your baby girl through another year safely. It really isn't "my day" is it? It's the anniversary of the day where my mom endured pain, anxiety and looked the fear of the unknown in the eye, all to bring me into this world. It's not a day to celebrate my life - it's a day to celebrate the life that my mom made possible. As we carry forward in our own mothering adventures, we suddenly begin to see the wisdom in our parents we didn't realize was there before.
Around this date years ago, you came into my life. Becoming a mother to such a beautiful son touched me in a way that nothing else in life can. Mommy loves you Iman Firash!
The sweetest one! Early morning #birthdaywish from #mylittleman... Pukul 5.50 pagi macam tu... : Mommy! Mommy! Wake up! Ingatkan nak susu... : #happybirthday Mommy! selepuk dia cium pipi kanan Mommy. Kad instant tu dia bagi tu... ... Kad dari blower yang dia dapat dari goodies bag kawan dia from school. . Tapi kisah apa kan? It's the thoughts that count! #bubblynotesdotcom #parentingblogger #parentingbloggermalaysia #lifestyleblogger #lifestylebloggermalaysia #myparentingandlifestyleblogger #malaysiaparentingandlifestyleblogger #tapfluencer #tapfluencernetwork #bloggermalaysia #malaysianblogger #blogger
My sincere appreciation for all of the wonderful phone calls, text messages, What's App and social media posts that I've received for my birthday! It definitely made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside! Thank you from the bottom of my heart!
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Since it is my birthday, I have looked in the mirror, and found that it is not so bad! I can still pretend to be few years younger, than I actually am! Happy Birthday to Me!